Just some of my thoughs!!!

I wrote this last week, just some of my thoughts!!!


So I haven't done one of these in a while and just kind of felt like sharing. As many of you know I'm 19 weeks pregnant (I’ll be 19 weeks tomorrow). I have a pregnant belly now, which has strangely emerged in the past few weeks. I'm shocked at how normal I feel about it. I always pictured my self pregnant and thought it would be awkward or weird, but it honestly feels natural. I haven't really felt any distinct kicks, but have defiantly felt some different movements. I think right now the baby is about the size of a bell pepper so it might take a few more weeks to feel something consistently, but I'm so excited for that. I went about 6 weeks feeling kind of weird about it b/c I wasn't sick any more, wasn't feeling the baby move and wasn't really showing (what most people call the "fat" stage, you look a little bigger, but not really pregnant yet, I'm glad that’s over, I had a friend tell me it was like you wanted to wear a sign and say “I’m pregnant not getting fat”) it was a little nerve racking at times after my miscarriage, because I found my self wondering if everything was ok, but as my belly gets bigger I know so does the munchkin, so that’s an amazing feeling. I have always had a different feeling with this one then I did the first one, I guess I kind of knew last time that something wasn’t right. But this time, I found out I was pregnant around an important date and feel like my mom kind of had a hand in this one and is taking special care of it.
I actually was only nauseas for about 4 weeks about week 7-11 which was pretty rough, but looking back wasn't the worst thing in the world. Althought I would like to talk to who ever named it morning sickness, its more like all day sickness. Other then that it hasn't been too bad. I struggle with my sinuses, and not being able to breath at night, but it seems that the baby has pity on me every once in a while and I have an amazing nights sleep to catch up! (like last night) and if that’s the worse thing I have to go through then I’m ok with that!
We have got some things picked out for the nursery like the bedding, the furniture and the wall colors and I’m so excited to get started on that. I love projects like that. As far as food goes I haven’t really had any weird cravings yet. I eat pickles a lot, but if you have known me very long you know that’s not unusual. And I seem to be drawn to Grits. I use to eat them all the time growing up but haven’t in a few years and I like them a lot now (except waffle house’s they are not good). As of my ....last Dr..... visit I have gained 2lbs, which I thought was pretty good, b/c I could have sworn it was more. But I’m pretty sure it will be more when I go back on the 18th.
On March 2nd we have the big ultra sound and get to see all the anatomy of the baby, but since we are not going to find out what it is, we are leaving that part out. JV has always felt that it would be so cool to be able to go out and tell everyone what it is when he or she arrives. I’m getting use to that fact, and actually don’t think it’s a bad idea b/c I’m not very worried about the labor part b/c I really want to know if it’s a boy or girl, so its keeping my mind off of that! We have a few names picked out, we have decided on a boy name and have narrowed down the girl name to 3 (which is pretty good, considering it was about 10 a few weeks ago). I don’t really have a “feeling” about what it is, one day I think girl and the next is a boy (actually as I sit here typing this I just got this weird felling like there was a butterfly in my stomach, that’s the baby moving, AMAZING!!!)
Well I just wanted to share a little bit, I know that if you have had kids, you know all this stuff and if you haven’t then maybe its something to look forward to but I’m so excited and so “wowed” everyday when I think about what God does. He is truly “an awesome God”